Time stands still

As I leave again for MCT tomorrow, I can't help but still feel like my life hasn't started yet. Its a weird feeling I didn't think I would feel. I was so sure that when I left for Boot Camp I would be able to say "Yes, my life is beginning, I'm an adult with a career and goals." But I don't? Its like, maybe once I get out of Combat training, I will feel like my life is getting started. But I know I won't. Like in Boot Camp, on T-1 you think that by T-50 you will feel so accomplished and close to the end. But when T-50 finally rolls around, T-64 seems like its still 50 training days away. I guess what I'm trying to say is, when does life finally begin? Are we ever going to feel like were doing something worth while? I thought I would by now, but I don't? I don't know when I ever will. Maybe thats not even a bad thing? And kids in college, I look at them and think they must know where its at. They're lives and careers are getting started. But when I talk to them, they don't even know what they want to do. They still feel like life is at a standstill. Its amazing how the clock still clicks, it will never stop. Days will go bye, and weeks, then months. Even years can pass. And yet? Life itself, just stands still. Like my favorite band Rush likes to say - "Time stands still." Haha, what a crappy ending. Ok, bye readers! If there are any out there?